My Lonely, Lovely, Heartbreak: All This Time

December 1, 2008

All This Time

All this time I could not see

The anger locked inside of me.

All this time I was ignoring

The envy that was clearly showing.

I admit that I was blind

I do not think that I can find,

A place where I can go to hide

A way to leave my pain behind.

I wonder If you'll ever see

The hidden parts inside of me,

I don't think you ever would

I don't think I ever could.

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Favorite seether song

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain, away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
[x2]And I don't feel right when you're gone away
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain[x2]
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

"As I sat here I was trying to think of all the times you hurt me and made me cry. . . Hoping and wishing it would make me like you less. But it didn't. Because all the times I could remember were the ones when you showed me that you cared. . . I didn't want to believe that you ever did...You walk by me everyday and say hello. Everyday you take time out to listen to me. You talk to me, smile at me, laugh with me, and have fun with me. Well, I talk, smile and laugh too, but inside I'm hurting. Deep down it hurts to be with you because I love you and you are only a friend."